So I pause, run the should I's in my mind. Still not sure, still feeling lost. C is for change.
C is also for cancer. There, I wrote the letters that form that word. That wicked word. That word that changes everything. And so it does.
I have recently been diagnosed with breast cancer. They found it early, my path is pretty straight through it to a healthy end. Surgery in early August....then daily radiation treatment through October. I am lucky to live close to the Mayo Cancer Center. I am lucky to have pretty good health insurance & a supportive employer. C is for courage.
C is for change. I plan to move forward, the Autumn Barn Sale will happen this year, but may be the last. I just don't know much beyond today. C is for change. C is for change. I wrap my mind around it and feel O.K. with it all. I will pause for this moment, then move on, feeling thankful that I can. C is for calm.
I have walked this path before with my parents....most of us will or have.
I think what we ultimately learn is that cancer does not define us and it is not a battle we win or lose. It just is. And the only way through it, is through it.